PTSD

I had an appointment with a psychiatrist today.  It is part of my mental health treatment since my physical well being has deteriorated and someone told me I have a demon in me.  (Nice thing to say to someone.)   Someone who I thought was a friend, unfriended me and I can feel my world collapsing around me.  I had forgotten about the ghosts from my past until he asked me what my childhood was like.  I can remember crawling in my dog's doghouse, wrapping my arms around her neck, and her licking my face as I sobbed til I couldn't cry anymore telling her my problems.  She was a true friend!!!  He told me I have been suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder  (PTSD) for years!  I wasn't expecting that one!  He said that explains why sometimes I lash out at someone if they say or do something to hurt me.  I am trying to protect myself from anymore mental hurt.  I think it is backfiring on me because I think I am losing some important people in my life.  With the proper counseling and medication my mind and heart will be ok. 
The weather got chilly here today.   I actually felt a few snowflakes.  Time to cuddle under the blankets!!!  Have a very blessed evening!!!

Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Living For Each Other

I just came across this on Facebook.  It seemed very appropriate for me.

 I wondered why God lets me live and I found it in this.   We are to live for each other...Doing everything we can to help one another and the greatest thing of all is to love one another!!!

Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Sisters

Oh, how I truly love my sisters!!!  Tonight we are spending the night at our older sister's house.  I think it is just what the doctor ordered for the 3 of us!!!  I am walking a lot more that I am not counting steps anymore.  My legs still ache and the mynoclosure seizures are still coming and going but the 3 of us are laughing and having a wonderful time!!!  It is way past sleepy time for me so I must bid you all lullaby-bies, good night and sweet dreams!!!  Lots of hugs and kisses!!!

Ssssshhhhhh!!!  My sisters are sleeping!!!

Laugh and Smile Often, Love Always!!!

Hard To Believe

It is hard to believe it has been 3 years ago yesterday since my crainiotomy.  The sun has been shining all day!  Most of the grass got mowed today.  I think it grew 4 inches overnight because of the storms.  Tomorrow is another day....another day of healing and taking one step at a time.  I took about 2 dozen steps without assistance today!  Yeah!!!  My legs are slowly getting stronger.  It will be alright.  Have a very blessed day everyone and take care!!!



Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Happy Mother's Day!!!

Happy Mother's Day to all of the mothers!!!  I found this on Facebook and found it appropriate....

Yesterday was a very important day for me....I was able to walk without assistance of my walker or wheelchair for a few minutes!!!  Yeah!!!  I know eventually I will be able to walk by myself just like before!!!  Have a very blessed day everyone!!!   I truly love all of you!!!


Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!! 

Endings

Endings can be very hard....Whether it is an ending of a movie that brings tears to your eyes, the ending of a personal relationship, or the ending of a close friendship.  The latter 2 type of endings rips my heart out and I wish with everything in me I could change them!!!  Have a very blessed day everyone!!!

Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Paralyzation

I have spent the last few weeks in the hospital.  I am partially paralyzed from the waist down.  I had myoclonus seizures continually for 3 days and then I couldn't feel them.  I just got dismissed today because I have progressed moving to and from bed and doing other things too.  I fell the night before last in the bathroom at the hospital...My legs gave out again.  I am super sore because I landed on my right side again but this time I hit my head on a ledge for the shower.  It was the second time I fell there.  I think the doctor dismissed me before I permanently knocked myself out.  lol  Felicia and Jerome loved pushing me around in the wheelchair.  I will miss the people shooting hoops outside...Yes, Mark, Dave, Sir William, Victor, Jeff, and Felicia I am talking about all of you.  Jerome, you totally cracked me up with your jokes and imitations.  Lauren and Felicia, you are both like daughters to me.   I hope we stay in touch with one another!!!  I have been getting LOTS of kitty hugs and dog cuddles since I have been home.  Please do not worry about my legs.  I have a neurologist appointment and I don't doubt with the help of him and my other doctors and God I will be able to walk again without the assistance of my walker, wheelchair, or anyone. 
I have deeply missed writing on my blog.  The hospital wouldn't let me have my laptop or cell phone because they wanted me to concentrate on getting better.  I did sneak my cell phone from one of the nurses and was able to listen to some of my tunes and do some surfing on the web but I couldn't write on my blog using it.
I got the coolest thing....It is an iSpy Tank....My iPhone controls it!  It will take pictures and record movies and move in any direction.    

This is the front.

 

This is the right side.

This is the back.

 Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!