Heart Pains

My heart has been hurting physically a lot today.  I have the gasping of air when it does that.  My legs and back still hurt a lot too.  I wish the pain would go away!!!  That Seroquel XR really did a horrible number on my body!!!
Have a very blessed day everyone and take care!!!  Lots of love to ALL of you!!!


Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Friends

1 of my friends asked if she could call me last night and I said, "Sure!"  We had a fantastic conversation which lasted for hours.  How time flies when you are having fun!!!  She told me I am a very strong woman.  I am sometimes but not all the time.  Sometimes the pain gets the best of me but I still smile and laugh.  It helps tremendously with the pain.  We talked about happy times and how we wanted people to remember us when our time comes.  We both said we wanted to be cremated and have our family and friends take a day off from everything and spend it how they want to and no tears.  I also want my organs donated but because of the horrible side effects of Seroquel XR, I don't know if that is possible.  My legs still hurt but at least I can walk.  I use a walker or cane most of the time.  Today my legs hurt a lot and my hands still shake.  A few days ago, I had the feeling of someone having their hands around my heart and squeezing with all their might again!!!  It took my breath away!!!  It is very scarey when that happens!!!  All of those are bad side effects of Seroquel XR!!!  Someone told me I lie about all of my medical problems!!!  I would do NO such thing and I have the medical records to prove everything that is wrong!!!  It is sad how some people say they are your friend and then use ANY excuse to completely cut off that friendship.  I guess they weren't really friends to begin with.  I see a gastrointestonalologist doctor at the end of July and the doctors are talking about referring me to a cardiovascular surgeon for the splenic hylum aneurysm.  I really do not want another surgery.  I know the risks of aneurysms.   
Have a very blessed day everyone and please don't take your family and friends for granted!!!  None of us know when our last day will be!!!

Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Hospital Again

I called my doctor on Wednesday and told them about some problems I was having.  They called me back after they talked to the doctor and told me to get to the Emergency Room immediately.  I have  a severe infection just what I didn't need.  I got heavy dose antibiotics and medicine for pain.  Hopefully, I will be better soon.
My counselor told me that my shattered heart and my decline in health are hand in hand.  I know she is right.  I don't take losing friends lightly!!!!
I hope you all have a very blessed day and take care!!!!


Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Rain, Rain, and More Rain

We have been getting a lot of rain here.  With the rain of course comes flooding.  We are fortunate to live on a hill so we don't get the water in the basement like a lot of people in our area do.
I have 2 more weeks left wearing the heart monitor.  So far no more calls from the doctor.  Yeah!!!  Since all the testing is coming back ok, he is more certain it is the Seroquel XR causing the heart attack symptoms.
I still smile and laugh everyday!!!  I hope all of you do too!!!
Take care everyone and have a very blessed day!!!

Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

More Testing

I haven't been able to post on my blog lately because of some more extensive testing on my heart.  My heart monitor had picked up a few blips so my cardiologist wanted more tests run.   I am finally home but who knows for how much longer.  I need to get better so I can go on my trip.  My cousin was here yesterday and we were talking about taking a trip to England next year.  I am so excited about my upcoming trip to Australia!!!
Someone once told me I have a pitiful life.  I do NOT!!!  He does because he is missing out on talking with a terrific person....Me!!!  
I received a letter from my neurologist to send to my insurance company to appeal their decision to stop my disability payments.  The letter started out that he said I am a very unfortunate woman because of all of my medical conditions.  My doctors are amazed that even with all the pain I have every day, I still laugh and smile!!!
I am hoping to get to play with my Spy Tank soon and post some pictures.  Everyone needs a toy to play with.  :D




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Casey Kasem

Yesterday a great American icon passed away after a long illness.  Casey Kasem suffered from Lewy body disease, a progressive form of dementia, which left him unable to speak, eat or move on his own. He was transferred to hospice care in Washington state shortly before his death.  He done Shaggy's voice on Scooby Doo and I remember listening to him dj for The American Top 40.  Rest in peace Casey Kasem!!!  You will be deeply missed!!!

Planning A Trip

I am so excited planning my trip to Australia!!!  I got airline tickets with trip insurance super cheap and only 1 short layover both ways!!!  Someone stopped by to ask if I wanted to sell some patio furniture.  I haven't been able to enjoy the outdoors much so I told my family member to sell them.  He came in and told me the lady used to work with me many years ago and he told her about my declining health and how he was very happy I was planning my trip because I always wanted to leave the country.  It made everything that much more surreal hearing someone else say to me that my time here may not be that much longer.  I know God is in control and I am not afraid!!!
I took another quiz on Facebook.  This one was titled "What Color Is Your Aura?" 

I got: Red Aura

Your aura is red. You thrive in exciting situations and are quick to fall in love and lust. Spontaneous, passionate, and energetic, you tend to follow your heart, even when it leads you to the wildest, untamed places. Though you occasionally act immature, you only mean to make yourself and others happy.

I only want the best for people.  I don't mean to hurt anyone but with life we do hurt others whether we mean to or not.
Have a blessed day everyone!!!  :D

 Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

 

Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there!!!  Father's Day is a celebration honoring fathers and celebrating fatherhood, paternal bonds, and the influence of fathers in society. Many countries celebrate it on the third Sunday of June, though it is also celebrated widely on other days, many other countries, some examples include Mexico, Russia, etc. They may include the 3rd Sunday, or even the 4th Sunday/Saturday. Father's Day was created to complement Mother's Day, a celebration that honors mothers and motherhood.
I hope everyone had a very blessed day!!!  I certainly did!!!

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Passport

I applied for my first passport today.  What a breath taking experience!!!  When the postmaster had me hold my right hand up to promise to tell the truth, it was so surreal!!!  I am planning a trip.  It is something I feel deep down inside me that I HAVE to do!!!  It is the same feeling I had when I got my team of neurosurgeons.
Many blessings and lots of love to ALL of you!!!



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Amazing Day!!!

I had an amazing day!!!  I had an appointment today to speak to a nurse about my medications.  She was so sweet!!!  After my appointment, I was walking down the sidewalk and saw 2 pennies...My pennies from Heaven!!!  I went to Arby's to get lunch and  when I walked by this gentleman's truck, he said to me, "You know, the companies who caused your injuries will pay!"  I did not know him.   He then asked me if he could pray for me and I said yes.   He extended his hand and I held it and he said one of the most beautiful prayers I have heard!!!  Mathew 18:20 says, For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.”  I smiled and thanked him for the lovely prayer.  I knew God was watching over me extra hard today!!!
I saw a little girl wearing a pink t-shirt and on the back of it it said, "Bye Boys!"   I laughed so hard!
Thank you so much to everyone who reads my blog!!!  Good night, sweet dreams, and God bless!!!


Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Heart Aches

I had an appointment with my neurologist this morning.  I am so blessed to have such caring doctors!!!  We had a long talk about my heart aches both mental and physical.  Shattered hearts are hard to repair...Sometimes they don't repair.  I am on a heart monitor for 30 days because I am still having chest pains.  I am on it to see if I am still having heart attacks and to see if it picks up any other abnormal readings.  The chest pains are not as strong since I haven't been taking the Seroquel XR for a couple nights.  My neurologist told me that someone like me should be taking at MAX 150mg.  The prescribing doctor had me on 400 mg!!!  If I had continued taking that amount chances are I would not survive much longer.  To be honest, I would LOVE to feel His NEVER ending love again!!!  Don't get me wrong, I still feel His love but it isn't as intense as it was that glorious May 11th day!!!  He isn't done with me yet on this earth...That is why He keeps me here and gave me the doctors I have to find the problems I am going through.
On Facebook, there are these "quizzes".  One I took tonight was titled, "What Kind of Flower Are You?"  I am a Daisy! It said, "Could you be any cuter?! You're bubbly, optimistic and super-friendly. Everyone wants you at their party. You're creative and often venture outdoors looking for inspiration. People just can't get enough of you and your sunny disposition!" 
Good night, sweet dreams, and God bless!!!
I still kiss your pictures every morning and night.



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A Walk To Remember

I watched the movie "A Walk To Remember" based on the novel by Nicholas Sparks tonight.  What a heart warming movie!  One of my favorite lines from it is, “Love is always patient and kind.  It is never jealous.  Love is never boastful nor conceited.   It is never rude or selfish.  It does not take offense and it is not resentful."  I still love even when it isn't returned.  I always will continue to love.  It is who I am.  I don't have it in me to ha**.  I don't even like to spell the word.
Today was my brother's birthday.  He loves my cakes and homemade icing so much!  I made him a chocolate cake.  He loved it and gave me a big hug!     
Some of my friends told me they were on Seroquel and had some of the same symptoms I have been having.  I am going to push very hard to have this drug removed from the market!  I am feeling better since I didn't take my dose last night.
Have a very blessed day everyone! 


Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

More Chest Pains

I have been having more chest pains since I have been released from the hospital a couple days ago.  I looked on one of my new medication labels for side effects and one of them said "Can cause severe chest pains and sudden death"!  I called the emergency room and told them about the possible side effects and how much my chest hurt but I wasn't coming out because I don't like being treated that the pain in my chest is all in my head.  The head nurse talked me into going to the emergency room.  The doctor was very nice and they ran more lab work and x-rays.  He told me I should probably have a heart cath done but our hospital doesn't do them.  When I went to leave he told me he would see me later and I told him I was going to a bigger hospital for the heart cath if the chest pains continued.  He told me that would be a good idea.  I am not going to take that medication anymore and am filing the proper paperwork with the Federal Drug Administration about the horrible side effects.
You all have a very blessed day!!!!


Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

D-Day

Today is the 70th anniversary for D-Day.  According to Wikipedia,
in the military, D-Day is the day on which a combat attack or operation is to be initiated. The best known D-Day is June 6, 1944—the day of the Normandy landings—initiating the Western Allied effort to liberate mainland Europe from Nazi occupation during World War II. However, many other invasions and operations had a designated D-Day, both before and after that operation.^[1]
The terms D-Day and H-Hour are used for the day and hour on which a combat attack or operation is to be initiated. They designate the day and hour of the operation when the day and hour have not yet been determined, or where secrecy is essential. For a given operation, the same D-Day and H-Hour apply for all units participating in it. When used in combination with numbers, and plus or minus signs, these terms indicate the point of time preceding or following a specific action. Thus, H−3 means 3 hours before H-Hour, and D+3 means 3 days after D-Day. (By extension, H+75 minutes is used for H-Hour plus 1 hour and 15 minutes.) Planning papers for large-scale operations are made up in detail long before specific dates are set. Thus, orders are issued for the various steps to be carried out on the D-Day or H-Hour minus or plus a certain number of days, hours, or minutes. At the appropriate time, a subsequent order is issued that states the actual day and times.
God bless all of the men and women who have fought and continue to fight for freedom.


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Dog Day

Today I went out of town with my sisters.  My oldest sister had 2 dr's appointments.  Afterwards, they wanted to go to WalMart for a few items.  When we pulled into the parking lot, we noticed a van with a Siberian Husky in it.  The temperature was 75 F!!!  The poor dog was so hot!!!  We searched for the police and sheriff department numbers.  I called the police department and he told me it was the sheriff department's jurisdiction and he was transferring me.  He transferred me across the COUNTRY to California!!!  Out of despair, I called 911 and told the dispatcher about the hot dog.  She told me she would get the proper authorities.  My sisters went inside the store while I waited on the police.  45 minutes later, the woman who owns the van came out.  I told her she should NOT leave her dog in a hot vehicle.   She said she was in the store for 5 minutes.  I told her to try at least 45 minutes because I was timing her.  She said "Fu** you!!!"  I told her she shouldn't talk to people like that who are just trying to help and she sped out of the parking lot.  I called the dispatcher back and told her the woman had left and she told me she was transferring me to the police.  I saw the police car and signaled for her to come to me.  I told her what transpired and she said she was going to go look her up because they had the license plate number.  I hope she found her.
We later went to a home improvement store that I love shopping in.  They had lots of tools on sale and I immensely enjoyed it!!!  I found a project I would love to do for my herbs.  It is called a Living Wall and it is so cool!!!  I won't have to bend over to harvest my plants.
PLEASE remember....Do NOT leave ANY living creature in a hot vehicle!!!


Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!

Chest Pains

I have spent the last 3 days in the hospital.  A family was walking and found me outside on the ground.  They called 911.  I was passed out on the ground.  When I came around, I was having chest pains.  I was admitted to ICU.  I had terrific nurses.  The doctors were a different story.  They couldn't find out why I am having chest pains so I was dismissed and pretty much told it is all in my head.  That brought back horrible memories from years ago where I was hit in the head by a machine guard in 1989 and the doctors couldn't figure out why I was having migraines.  In 2005 it was found that the C3-C4 was crushed and pressing against my spinal cord.  That story is at the beginning of my blog.  I hope it doesn't take 16 years to find out why I am having chest pains. 
I did have a lovely view of the great outdoors.  It was raining and it was coming down in sheets.  Today was a gorgeous day. 
I hope you all are having blessed days!!!  Take care!!!



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High Road

I have come to the realization that I am finished with the people who say I have a miserable life.  It may look miserable to them, but I am a very blessed woman!!!  I have LOTS of family and friends who love me and the doctors and their staff are fabulous too!!!  I have lots of testing at the hospital on Wednesday.  They are trying to figure out why I am so sick all the time.  The mynoclonus seizures have gotten worse along with some other heath issues.  They thought the Splenic Hylum aneurysm had ruptured Friday but after a CT with contrast, it showed no bleeding that they could see.  I still have excruciating pain in my abdomen so that is why they are running the tests Wednesday.

The high road is the only road to be on but make sure you keep your hands on the steering wheel! 

I am fighting my own battle physically to worry what people are saying about me.  All you nay sayers need to take a good look in the mirror at yourself before talking about others.

 

 

 

Laugh and Smile Often, Love ALWAYS!!!